| smell |
[Dec. 12th, 2006|10:41 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  clean this up | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | beats | ] |
i'm a nice guy.
it's just that i see through all the bullshit. so join me if you know what i'm talking about. |
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| I l@?e bush |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|02:10 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | michelle frazilla's | ] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| | nothing in peticular | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | sounds like primus | ] |
hey jonah, please keep playing guitar hero, me.
i wish i knew shit, ya know?
why won't the rat play with me?
i really love that whammy bar, really do. |
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| surreal wanderings as work |
[Nov. 6th, 2006|06:33 am] |
best western navigator inn, reporting.
with money comes many fine liquors and a gamecube for hotel boredom.
there are hunters right behind me, sipping coffee like it's no big deal or something.
anyways, it's like that. |
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| oh good! |
[Oct. 15th, 2006|06:00 pm] |
pot tastes better smoked out of a pear.
and mushrooms taste better at barter fair.
am drugs. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 29th, 2006|11:33 am] |
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i lost my second cat in two weeks. data and yogi, may you rest in kitty peace </3 |
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| oh, yes. |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|06:56 pm] |
sleeping in the afternoon has benefits. sometimes you overhear your roommate being a genius. and by genius i mean a little shit.
maybe he's right. i overhear him saying how he pretends not to be pissed at me, but really is. he thinks i don't know. because he's so fragile. fragile? he puts me right in my place, like he puts everybody. he's a person. a person is somebody who was sheltered their whole life from the outside world and given lots and lots of stuff. a person doesn't give a thought to somebody else's condition, especially if it goes against this person's faith. whereas i'm a human. humans are imperfect, primal, savage, ape-like bi-pedals who know so much yet really so little. HUMAN.
and to boot he was confiding in his girlfriend.
i hate learning sometimes, i really honestly do hate it. not always. |
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| that's what it's going to come down to. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2006|02:35 pm] |
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so what is it exactly. responsibility? i'm trying to make money to support myself, so i'm working two jobs. but i also want to play drums. but i have rent, groceries, insurance. they don't pay for themselves. i hate money. everything must die. |
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| those jews |
[Jul. 19th, 2006|09:49 pm] |
i got in an argument with a jew at work.
...yes i lost, big time. but earlier in the day she gave me two dollars. but i didn't remember that at the time. it wasn't the subject of the argument though.
i wish i was larry david right now, just for a day. |
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| livejournal is for vague |
[Jul. 16th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | ...home... | ] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  exanimate | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | 2002 | ] |
there have been a couple things on my mind lately, you know, stuff, feelings about stuff. for instance my brother is in naval intelligence. he just got out of the nsa but now he can't even tell us what he's in. i called him four times this week, left messages, got no reply. his birthday was on friday. still haven't heard from him. i can obviously conclude that he is really busy (just go watch any news channel for a few minutes). i know he's safe where he is, but it pisses me off. not that it's his fault, but it's that whatever he is doing is so secret that he can't even communicate with his family.
speaking of that, have you watched the news? cnn, wolf blitzer, everytime a bomb goes off over there he pops a huge boner and starts wondering if it's going to get worse. he is a dipshit. all of these so called journalists are just reading promopters. they don't know fuck about shit (i stole that), but c'mon. we ALL know it's never going to get any better over there. and this may sound weird coming from yours truly, but just read a little thing called the book of revelation. it's kind of in there, so is the v-chip, but that's another story to be told another time (i stole that too).
man i can't even be original with my own thoughts, that aren't even my own thoughts.
i was happy to play in cashmere this weekend. i was nervous, but i had fun. i was glad that people showed up. i want to play again, grow with these homeboys over here. i was supposed to go to a jungle juice party afterword, but i bailed. i feel bad, but i hope the person i promised i would go with can forgive me. it doesn't need to be discussed here.
i'm scared of my job. i hate jobs. but the thing is you gotta not worry about the crappy job and focus on what you do in your free time, how you enrich yourself. like tonight i watched the squid and the whale, ate half of a garlic bread pizza, drank two mountain dews, and finally realized that i pick the strangest movies to watch.
if you comment please make it negative, just...trust me, you'll see. |
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| someone once said |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|02:47 am] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  not too thinky | ] |
don't put all your freaking eggs into one basket.
i added the freaking part. but it's true, i saw, and i heard, oooh ahhh.
it's the moment. it's the journey. if you're not careful you might dream your life away. but check it out, it's all around you. you see that cat? zen cat. well i'm going to bed now. |
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| pretty much lots. |
[Jul. 3rd, 2006|12:02 am] |
have you ever found a song that you used to love and later you come to find out that it was exactly what would happen? in a good way. and i just rediscovered it, beautiful.
so i watched elizabeth town tonight. just me, a cheese and refried bean quesadilla, two mountain dews, and all of my old pictures, well the ones not on my computer. i seperated my favorites and put them on my wall in front of me. there's bbbq, my old elementary school pictures (i always had long hair) old and present cats, cousins, brother, mom, dad, old girlfriends, girl-friends (get it?) bands i've played in since middle school, and a couple pretty pictures taken during the last two years. i've been very emotional in that sense. i'm going through so many memories like i have cancer, but i'm not sad, just so happy for all the good things that have happened to me. you just have to keep moving, make them wonder while you're still smiling.
okay, in everyday life, my new job has been interesting. i work with iranians and this really cool lady named misty. her sister, yep, christy, always comes in. they told me stories about working at these homes for developmentally disabled people, how they take care of them, and what can go wrong. the customers are very friendly, and harldy any of them speak english. i faced the entire shell like a mad fiend, and everyone was like jeeze where did you come from? so i told them about safeway and how facing is in my blood. at least that place looks like pretty much awesome now.
surreal wouldn't do justice right now. one day my shell cracked something bright was shining in my eye. at first i mocked this, but once i realized it was warm and good i broke the rest open. when i go visit oregon again i want to see chris, ben, and ben and i can tell them about my adventures in the evergreen state. and to boot, ben-jammin'(my jam buddy in medford, and good friend) says that him and his girlfriend are going to move up to seattle in a year or two. i was so stoked, because they are the cutest nicest couple i know, well besides pat and rachel, or rachl and ignatius (from what i hear ;) so yeah, i love being around happy couples.
my adventures are only beginning. when i get my first paycheck my reward will be a drive to seattle to explore and take pictures. it's the emerald city for goodness sakes.
and i watched bob ross today on youtube. |
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| wow |
[Jun. 30th, 2006|01:27 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | west side | ] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  not bad | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | pheonix - run run run | ] |
carson's life checklist has made some progress.
yesterday i went to ozzfest, i moshed at the second stage during atreyu, then i saw dragonforce, and THEN, ozzy himself. my step brother josh took me (for FREE).
my ears are still ringing.
pat is not a neat freak, i am. this apartment can't seem to stay "clean". he couldn't believe it when i moved in and started making things look nice. i guess i'm just a housewife at heart, a homemaker.
there was a guy in the mosh pit in a wheelchair. it was so cool. then on the mainstage during disturbed he was crowd surfed (chair and all) to the front of the stage and the lead singer said bring on stage. so he got to sit right behind disturbed and rock out.
it's weird all these hard rockers are just big softies. it's weird how some of the lyrics (if you can understand them) have a positive message.
i'm turning into a coastie. i love how much there is to do over here, all the possibilities.
good summer so far y'all. |
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| too lazy to grab the spelling errors |
[Jun. 28th, 2006|01:05 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | 148th avenue s.e. | ] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  amazing? | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | the arcade fire - neighborhood #3 | ] |
i can't update this. maybe because my lj has always been a sad place for me to feel sad and talk about things that are making me sad.
i'm learning, key word, learning, to be happy. being sad led me to be bitter which led me to being pretentious about everything. i'm opening up. not instantly forming an opinion the second i hear something, like say music, for example.
i have jammed in multiple jam rooms with multiple people in the wenatchee valley. i'm currently a member of barons of industry, soon to bring the funk/blues to cashmere on the 14th. or go to myspace.com/baronsofindustry and have a look at our new picture, it will soon be gracing the wenatchee valley via poster. lick it.
i also get to audition for the bcc jazz choir and jazz band. these guys are serious too. they go to new york, hawaii, new orleans and other places. pat sang in the jazz choir for awhile and he says the director is the man.
life is cool because you can always start over, turn around, get out of your rut. i'm still accepting certain things like being divorced at 20 and what comes with that. coming to terms with a past that you try so hard to forget is tricky. i try to not talk a lot aobut this in lj, there is so much, and most of it will never be shared because i made a vow to never tell of certain things. if i ever hated her it's completely forgiven. my mom was right though, i eventually stopped checking up to make sure she was doing well or whatnot. she moved on and fell in love and i hope this one turns out okay for her. seriously folks, it's the biggest thing that has ever happened in my life. most importantly i forgave myself for everything i did that caused it all to happen.
but i'm looking to forward to, well, whatever. being out of the comfort zone, going to college, just being cute and sober, with sideburns. pat and chris (the other barons) are two of the most amazing musicians i know. we just want to play, good, songs.
i call my mom every week at least once, that way we can have a relationship, becuase she's too cool not to. i love being able to tell that i'm not adopted, contrary to my brother's opinion. i can talk to my dad a lot but he lives so close it's funny. i get to see my brother on the 14th as well. so he's gonna see some barons, and i bet he'll be liking it.
well my tylenol pm minus the tylenol is kicking in. i am fascinated by this town, all of these towns over here. the buildings, the life, actually seeing different races, that kinda thing.
everything's different, my, head in the clouds. (thanks mr. matthews) |
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| foop |
[Jun. 21st, 2006|01:46 pm] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | jazzzzzzzzzzz | ] |
well i've been in the north central washington for three days. it has been ahhhhh, like a relaxing sigh. beauty is all around me. the hills, trees, green, smells, orchards, good people, music rooms everywhere. i guess that was a sentence. the first night i hung out with sudffr, jammed, recorded, was merry. tuesday jammed with barons + shawn, which equaled super funk rock jamz. then hung out with steev, shad, and rachl at mr. chalmer's house. steev is house sitting for him. but yeah a nice little jazz set in the living room, a big piano, steev's new vibes (huge), shad's sax, and mine and rachl's drums, clark and dobby. lots of cigs have been smoked in the last two days. in fact i need...er i mean would prefer to buy more. tasty smoke.
tonight will be bbq at chalmers with shawn joining the mix, then we can practice for friday and saturday. btw be there, downtown cashmere, friday and saturday, if you want to see how it all has to go down. there will be lots of surprises, so hold on to your butts.
right now i'm staring up yaksum canyon and mission creek road/canyon. there is a big bird with a worm in it's mouth. yikes the phone just rang. but yeah pretty chill. the hills look surreal. |
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| it's been weird. |
[Jun. 17th, 2006|07:57 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | southern oregon | ] |
| [ | I'm feeling |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | farts | ] |
last post until bellevue.
the truck is comfy.
didn't i just move?
well, hope i don't die. |
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| true story |
[Jun. 10th, 2006|08:16 am] |
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i was checking this morning and all of a sudden, right before my eyes, beauty. she bought a protein bar (<3) and payed with 20. okay this wasn't one of the many "hot" college girls that circle the store pretending that they aren't anything special and that nobody is staring at them. she was more like the quiet, light-hearted intellectual, like she would enjoy a nice stroll through a mountain pasteur, or some green tea at sunset, and so on. then she asked in that sorta flirty way if she could have some ones. i asked how many and she said as much as i could. so i said well i think i can find some in here for you. THEN, some impatients(customers) showed up and did the whole "i've been standing here for at least ten seconds what's taking him so long?" so then this girl and i get confused cause i gave her the money but then she was confused about something and then i got lost and pretty much i suck at life. i of course ended our meeting with the usual "have a nice day" but it was already over. i realize it's going to be a long, hard battle to find whatever self-confidence i used to have. hehe i said hard. see what i mean? |
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| jon stewart vs bill bennett (short version) |
[Jun. 7th, 2006|09:05 am] |
(rough transcript)
Stewart: So why not encourage gay people to join in in that family arrangement if that is what provides stability to a society?
Bennett: Well I think if gay..gay people are already members of families...
Stewart: What? (almost spitting out his drink)
Bennett: They're sons and they're daughters..
Stewart: So that's where the buck stops, that's the gay ceiling.
Bennett Look, it's a debate about whether you think marriage is between a man and a women.
Stewart:I disagree, I think it's a debate about whether you think gay people are part of the human condition or just a random fetish.
you can watch the video here http://onegoodmove.org/1gm/1gmarchive/2006/06/jon_stewart_wit.html |
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